Books, Sweets, Television

So here is the first diary update.
For the first time in my life I will try to describe emotions, not happenings. If it works or not, decide yourself.
I came to Poland more than one month ago now. I don't feel like going back to England. It is the place where I had to be alone. Alone for months. And maybe because of this hard time few months ago, right now, every time someone leaves my house, just after few minutes, I feel like it's been a week or more. I feel alone and I can't do anything about it.
I meet my friends, of course. One of them even came to my house for 4 days. I didn't feel that lonely when she was here, of course. But she left. She travelled back home, to Toruń, yesterday, and my irrational desire to have someone in my house came back. My mom's in London, my gran is crazy, and I live alone in this stupid house of mine. Wouldn't you feel lonely? I make more and more parties, but neighbours complain, my boy friend's mom keeps telling me that and I don't know if I am that happy myself. Every time I fel alone and there is no one who can come my house (and it doesn't happen very often) I take a book and I swim into another world to meet with people from different time periods, different countries, or just witches, wizards, werewolves or vampires. I explore different cultures and places. I explore different worlds.
Sometimes it helps. But not always. When it doesn't help, the only option is to take a bunch of big, milky chocolate, cake or any other sweet, and eat it, eat it, eat it. 'Cause the food is best medicine for everything. Your favourite food. And favourite tv series, like The Vampire Diaries, which I love. Yes, trying to short it: if you feel lonely, and your friends are actually not able to come, try my method BST - Books, Sweets, Television. Or simple call them by phone.
I meet my friends every day and still, when they leave, I start feeling lonely. Look what the stupid London done to me. Haha. Thank God, there are such a things as yummy cakes, and delicious books.